Monday, October 07, 2019

Wind Blows, Water Flows: On Invitation of the Holy Spirit.

The tale of the Fisher King begins with a boy having to spend the night alone in the forest to prove his courage so he can become king. While he's spending the night alone, he's visited by a sacred vision: out of the fire appears the Holy Grail, the symbol of God's divine grace, and a voice says to the boy: "You shall be keeper of the Grail so that it may heal the hearts of men." 
But the boy was blinded by greater visions of a life filled with power and glory and beauty, and in this state of radical amazement, he felt, for a brief moment, not like a boy, but invincible, like God. So he reached in the fire to take the Grail and the Grail vanished, leaving him with his hand in the fire, to be terribly wounded. 
Now, as this boy grew older, his wound grew deeper, until one day, life for him lost its reason. He had no faith in any man, not even himself; he couldn't love or feel loved; he was sick with experience — he began to die. 
One day a fool wandered into the castle and found the king alone. Now, being a fool, he was simple-minded. He didn't see a king—he only saw a man alone and in pain. 
And he asked the king, "What ails you, friend?" 
The king replied, "I'm thirsty. I need some water to cool my throat." 
So the fool took a cup from beside his bed, filled it with water, and handed it to the king. As the king began to drink he realized that his wound was healed. He looked in his hands and there was the Holy Grail — that which he had sought all of his life. 
He turned to the fool and said with amazement, "How could you find that which my brightest and bravest could not?" 
The fool replied, "I don't know. I only knew that you were thirsty."

Simone Weil:
When we pray, "Thy Kingdom Come," this concerns something to be achieved, something not yet here. The kingdom of God means the complete filling of the entire soul of intelligent creatures with the Holy Spirit. The Spirit bloweth where he listeth? We can only invite him. We must not even try to invite him in a definite and special way to visit us or anyone else in particular, or even everybody in general; we must just invite him purely and simply, so that our thought of him is an invitation, a longing cry. It is as when one is in extreme thirst, ill with thirst; then one no longer thinks of the act of drinking in relation to oneself, or even of the act of drinking in a general way. One merely thinks of water, actual water itself, but the image of water is like a cry from our whole being.

Friday, August 30, 2019

Summer Recomp Recap : True Confessions

Mostly a stream of consciousness recap of what happened as I got vain and did easy HT work to stay in the swing of things during a summer-too-hot-to-touch-the-barbell in Bakersfield.

Purposes:
1. Waist reduction n' Recomposition
2. Weak movements improvement
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1. EAT CLEAN - this is not a weight reduction, it's a fat reduction
Outline for eats:
2500 calories/day = maintenance
Cals : 2362
Exercise : 259 (cals, not minutes)
Fat : 89g / 35%
Carb : 84g  / 15%
Pro : 295g  / 51%

Keys:
- Keep Pro over 225/day; Carb under 125/day
- On Rest days, the target is carbs under 50g
- Do IF everday

Recomposition: Waist is 40, up from 38.5, up from 37
I want to see 35 before changing cycles - .5" off per week = 6 weeks to 37
Upper arm 15.5 to 17
Chest 45 to 47
Everything else can remain static
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2. Weak movements
Pull up
Power clean
Rollout-FtB

Bread and butter:
RDL/Hip Thruster
OHP
OHS
Ring Dip/Ring rows-Meadows rows
BB complexes
KB Swing

Do HT, Tonics, weak movements for reps and weak movements for 5RM
Ruck and easy fat burning endurance sessions, if possible on weekends

 1M - La
FW/Rollouts
Power Clean
RDL heavy/Squat light
Hip/Banded Add Squat

 2T - Aa
Pull ups/Power clean
Ring Row/Dyno Push ups
Ring Dip/Ez in

 3W - OFF - NO CARB, Lo Carb

 4Th - Lb
FtB/FW
Power clean, light
Deficit RDL/Front squat light
Hip/OHS light

 5F - Ab
Chins/(Power clean)
BBBO/Iso Flat Bench Presses
Ez in-out/OHP light

 6S - OFF or Ruck or Sprints/MA or Grace

 7Sn - Bonus or Grace
BB complex
Chins
C/T

week 1 - 4/3
week 2 - 4/4
week 3 - 5/4
week 4 - 3/3 - devolume

week 5 - 3/3 add weight
week 6 - 4/3
week 7 - 4/4
week 8 - 5/4 - devolume
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Did it work? Let's start with the bottom line.

Post-cycle Takeaways:

- Started off with waist at 40", ended with waist at 38".

- Other measurements didn't change significantly, upper arm added .5" and this was a secondary objective, just not as much growth as anticipated, and chest didn't change significantly (carry subcutaneous fat there).

- Lost 6 lbs. of scale weight: 2 lbs. a month/ .5 lb a week. Just sayin' - this was not a goal of this program, it just happened.

- Work cap didn't change much (did mostly only HT work), weak movements didn't move too much (wasn't very scientific about tracking them though). They definitely didn't go south, and the weak movements were the movements that got their grooves greased this whole cycle, a plus.

Okay, monthly breakdowns follow.
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4 weeks, June is in the bank.

…lost one pound, BF% is the same via the Tanita scale. I think I look more lean. Measurements say that I've lost some subcutaneous fat all over, because of the lack of weight loss, but slightly smaller measurements all over.
1 inch off of the waist, .5 off of the shoulders and hip. Added .25 to the arm, or not. The inch off the waist is the win - that's .25" per week without really being on a cut - just being on maintenance calories and doing easy HT work.

Workouts have been mostly by feel, and mostly everyday I can get them in. 21 days on with 8 days off in 29 days. 3/1. Mostly about 30 mins, all with the 40 on/55 off timer, and most everything but the buy in is antagonistic.

Mains have been BBBO and dyno pushups
RDLs and light squatting or trap deads
trying to do chins and cleans regularly
I'll get numbers on exercise frequencies. I have been adjusting on the fly, based on what I feel like doing out there.

Sets have been mostly 
2/2 for the buy in FW/rollouts
4 of power clean, or chins
4/3 for the main
cash out 4/3 ez and ring dip or tri, or Hip/add squats (now Goblet add squats)

Macros are spot on: 109g fat, 108g carb, 288g pro day/average.38/17/45% - remember that I wanted to only be under 20% with carb 9 (under 125g/day) and over 40% with protein (over 225g/day). I'm averaging 40 over the 2500 maintenance calories per day.

I've been doing IF each day, weekends 95% too. 
Sleep has been good, if I nap I keep up. Late in the month I was getting squeezed with early starts at work and ppl staying up late now that they're on summer break (and Konrad's football practices go til 8 - if I go to sleep at 8, I get 8).
The right knee has felt sketchy, I think it was a MCL strain about 7 weeks ago. It's starting to feel better, but I was unable to squat on it for the longest, and completely unable to sit cross-legged until just yesterday.

To adjust:
more so:
- Less or zero cals on off days (as it was for these first 4 weeks, I ate an average of almost 100 more calories on OFF days than I did on ON days, and, more significantly, an average of 23g more carbs on OFF days than ON days, and it should be reversed). I'd like to see an average of 50g LESS on OFF days than ON days.
- Less cals on off days (300 less = to the workout cals, perhaps, and therefore, 600 more on ON days to counter). So, Wave my intake. Which is to say, plan my workout days, instead of trying to exercise when I can or as many days/week as I can.
- My schedule is only allowing me to workout in the PMs (and with the heat, I'm doing well) but that doesn't allow for the first carbs of the day to be post-workout - I wish this was the case
- Wave volume so that you're not doing 4/3 sets all the time
less so:
- Add in heavy, low rep work on key exercises (power clean, pulls)
- I've only done the cosgrove complex a few times, once a week is good, but expand to 2x/week (and the complex can change to be WoD rounds)
- add in some work capacity work
- add in some skill work (read, MA bag rounds)

3 day breakdowns in the future, instead of two (three alternating Mains):

A
buy in - clean/FTB
Add - weighted chin or weighted pull
3 alternating Mains - BBBO/Archer, or ring row-meadows/dyno, or more pulls-chins/OHP
cash out - ez in/tri, ez out/tri, or ez/ring dip on OHP day

L
buy in - FW/rollouts
Add - KB swing
3 alternating Mains - RDL/squat, or dRDL/front squat, or heavy RDL/trap dead
cash out - Hip/Add squat

Tonic - or Bonus
buy in - cleans or kb/chins
Main - complex
cash out - direct arm work, cav press iso and hammer to burnout

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8 Weeks, July is in the bank

Lost 4 lbs, another inch off of the waist - down to 38". This is the primary goal, so keeping pace at .25" off the waist per week is great. See "8_weeks_measurements" - fractional gain on the neck, loss on the arm, but everything else is static. Look, I'm doing the impossible! Spot fat loss!

It's been really hot, and doing workouts in the afternoons has really sucked. But I have been keeping it up; 17 on and 11 off this cycle (22 on, 9 off last cycle). Frequency is a bit lower, but the cals per workout (and thus, time per workout) is up from 280 to 307. 
Last cycle I ate 100 cals more on off days than on days, but this cycle I ate nearly the same amount on all days (2700/days, with a maintenance of 2500). Last cycle I ate a third more carbs on off days than on on days, but this month I ate more than a quarter less - a good change. 
Carbs on all days were under a hundred grams (with no fatigue or drained feeling - maybe all the days off, or the hypertrophy work instead of the heavy RPT work, or because I'm eating 2700 cals instead of 2300 and less?). 
See "8_weeks_macros"

People are starting to notice and say things about how I look. The numbers haven't really moved using the tape measure, so it's mostly a function of probably having lost subcutaneous fat, and everyone in the world wearing less clothes for summer while looking like beached whales.

My right knee is still sketchy, so my squatting is very light. I'm adding weight in most all exercises. OHP feels good at 93# plus chains, archer presses feel good at 74#, added 5# to the curl bar, dips are 11 reps across. Chins and pull ups feel good, dunno if there's much of a breakout but I think I've added 1 rep across for these. Anyway, I'm not flagging or losing strength (although I'm not testing the tops of my lifts, even with 5RM days), just saying that I feel good.

I added in trap deads, and wanted to be powercleaning every other day. I'm probably power cleaning every 3rd day. I didn't do those complexes this cycle, did do bag work once. I would like to do more of all of it, and add in rucking and add in sprinting and, and, and. I'll stick with this until it pans out.
Until then, if I can hold an inch off a month, that means 37" at the end of August, then 36" at the end of September, and finally 35" at the end of October?
I could/would have to buckle down the cals at some point. Anyway, 35 inch waist on Halloween, then hold steady without blowing up again during Squatober?
CFFB with Konrad isn't going to happen (he's not motivated to lift, and his practices are evenings in the heat), but we should adjust after his football season is over. Maybe he will do Squatober.
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12 weeks, August
The final month was hot, making workouts in the evenings either a chore, or skippable. The biggest difference in the schedule was the frequency (18 on, 14 off; or 1.29 … went down to half of the June frequency of 22 to 9 or 2.44). The exercise amount per session went up (355 cals in Aug from 280 in June, so sessions were longer. Not double, but longer). Same rest interval, so more sets per workout.
Timer was 40 on, 55 rest.

Eating was as clean as July, the big difference was fat was down an average of 14g/day, which cut cals by almost 200. June I ate just slightly over the 2500 mark (2540) and July I ate 170 above, August I hit right at 2501. I wasn't focused on eating less fat, I just did. I was eating a lot of hunks of cheese and plain lunchmeats for lunch after IF all morning with just coffee. Simple, some would say yucky, but I have a high tolerance for eating what's good for me and sameness.
Costco ON Whey Isolate protein in the $50 bag was a 2x/day staple. If I was under, and I was under a lot of days, I'd have Halo Top ice cream with peanut butter on it as an after-dinner treat. Cut that out and one could really lose fat. I ran out of BCAAs and didn't have them to drink in the mornings with the coffee, that was probably not a good way to start my day (thinking that drinking a bigbig cup of water firstthing with C and BCAAs is a keystone habit).

For August, hit all the marks that were focal : above 250g/day for protein, under 100g/day for carbs, and right at 200 cals/day average for exercise. 
Not that cals are a good indicator of work done with weights, it's just the LoseIt! metric.

I didn't wave the volume this month at all, the workouts were infrequent and I mostly did the sets shown below (22 or 16 sets-ish). 

Measurements stalled this month - partly because the workouts were more spotty, maybe because an 8 week "cut" is good enough. Waistline didn't move, that was first on the list of things to change. Everything else stayed static too, basically. Did lose a couple of pounds while maintaining size, which means that I did lose some more subcutaneous fat (maybe partially a product of summer heat, maybe just what one would expect from this program of slow fat loss and slow muscle growth).

I kept up with the power cleans, didn't do any complexes at all this month. Mostly mainline HT work, with less of an eye to the paperschedule and more of a feel for what I wanted to do. Squats started to feel good at the end of the whole program - nagging right knee thing since February sprint session kept bothering me all the way (got it x-rayed and they said it was arthritic, so fuck it then, if it's not an MCL tear or strain, I'm not resting it anymore, I'm going to let it hurt until it figures out who's boss).

Sessions in August mostly looked like:
- Buy In
Power Cleans/Pulls 4/4                 
FW/Rollouts 2/2

- Push-Pull Antagonists
BBBO/Archer or OHP/Chins 4/3 
Squat/RDL 4/4 or 5/4

- Cash out
C/T, many times hammers 4/3 
Hip/Add Goblet squats, many times add calf raises 4/3

Looking forward to a switch. I'll kinda clean bulk in Squatober for 4 weeks. Until then, I'll do "Sprintember" because sprinting M/Th while Konrad's at football practice has been easy to do, then maybe morning work when it's cool on S/Sn/W… I promised myself that I would be rucking on the weekends this summer to up my work capacity, but that never really happened. 

I'll keep eating clean and keep the cals in moderation, keep doing HT (A/L/A on those S/Sn/W workouts, because the sprinting is L day, really).
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Lessons learned for next times:
8 weeks of more intense cutting will be more beneficial than 12 weeks of more moderate gradual recomping. Next time, even 6 weeks of a true cut with 6 weeks of a clean bulk is in order. Going until you stall isn't as good as changing while you're still feeling fresh.

Carb cycling would have been good to do - get under 50g/day on off days, and up to 125g-ish on work days. This would be a facet of that more intense cut.

Either get a different job, or don't expect to get your workouts done outside in Bakersfield in the summertime. Many days I'd be off at 2:30 and there's no way to touch the bar, even if it's been shaded under a towel. It's mentally wearing. Winter mornings don't work, heck, all mornings are bad early because I'll wake the neighbors and because mornings are for Morning Watch, but Summer mornings are best. 

Be more scientific and smart about rep/set schemes and waved volume (and frequency as an aspect of total volume). Sketch out days and what's going to be accomplished. I went by feel way too much the last 6 weeks. How many total sets per week; how many total sets per day; what days; what weight to use based on what you used before; what work is going to be 10-rep HT and what work is going to be low-rep Strength building (maybe only one item per workout, but it's not a bad thing to do to maintain str during a recomp). Anyway, you get it. The nutrition was the focus this time, and I did nail it. Now, to step up the game and be smarter about the work.

Having a sketch of on/off days will allow for carb and calorie cycling too. That's a consideration for a true cut ala Leangains style, which, I've already mentioned, is the way to go next time. Because stubborn waistline fat needs to be shocked.

Friday, July 12, 2019

Lovin' Apple Since Before 2005

Someone asked, in 2005:
>>The presenter kept apologizing for the Macs we were using.  I think that tech oriented people tend to favor the Apples for their capabilities.  Non-techies favor the click-and-that's-all-I-have-to-do IBM's. What are your thoughts?


I think that the presenter has never really used a Mac. 

The thing that linear ppl can't fathom about the Mac is that there can be more than one way to do everything, and some are more elegant than others, whereas on a windows box, there is only one way to do everything. Kinda like if you want to hang a picture, you can hammer the nail into the wall with a hammer, or rock or heel of a shoe even, if you don't have a hammer. You can even use the butt end of a screwdriver. But on a winbox, if you don't have the recommended software solution, you must run to the store and buy Microsoft HammerPro for $49.95 before continuing. Only then can the nail make it into the wall. 

Some people like to have the Wizard hand-hold them through a series of dialogue boxes to accomplish whatever they thought they were working on. They make cards with Printshop from clip art and feel really good about what they created. They're the kind of ppl who, as kids, traced cartoons from their coloring books and thought that they'd "created" something.

Some of this is creeping into the Mac OS to make it easy for initiates to get started, but it only forestalls the inevitable end for that type of user. When I see the dialogue box that asks "This is the first time you've used Barfbag Software. Would you like me to assist you in setting up your preferences?  -Yes -No," I wish there was a "-Hell No" button to click. These canned wizards never anticipate the actual user. So, when someone who is getting warmed up to the idea of creating on the computer asks, "Hey, I want to do a triangular card for someone! Like a big piece of pizza!" Do you think the Printshop wizard is constructed to handle *that*? 

So, Winusers plateau after a while, since the platform eventually stifles real creativity - whether that takes a day or a year. And if it doesn't happen after a year, a hardware problem, like a hard drive crash will occur and really end the fun. At that point, the box gets put into the garage.

Anyway, the percentages of Mac users who actually use their decks on a day to day basis compared to windows are outrageous - most of that huge Windows market share is collecting dust. 
And I'm never surprised to hear how much "deeper" Mac users go with their machines. Those who really use the computer use Macs.

Saturday, February 16, 2019

One Love Activated.

I’ve had this right hamstring really buggin’ me for the last 5 weeks, strained on the only missed rep deadlifting in the Easy 40. I haven’t been able to squat or hinge for over a month, and stretching has made it worse each time I’ve tried. I was limping around at work Friday, and having trouble going up stairs all week. I’ve never had a simple muscle strain last longer than a week, ever. 
I was asking God just this morning, “What’s up with this? Why is this nagging me?” I was thinking it was just to keep exercise (any time spent exercising) out of my frame of life right now. I was okay with that. But geez. The thing wasn't seeming to get any better at all.

So, one of the many, many groovy God moments at today's Activate Love seminar, there was an 8th grader, Dominic, who was there because he was the little brother of one of the high schoolers. We all broke up into pairs and did an exercise to practice approaching a stranger, asking them if they have any physical ailment, and offering prayer for it. It was just practice, the “person approached” was just supposed to make something up as their ailment.
Dominic was my partner, and I told him straight up before we started that I was serious, I wanted him to really pray for my hamstring - not just in play. So he did. We went through the motions of the exercise, but his prayer was serious, simple and heartfelt. 
I told him to tell me to move it around afterward - to “do something you couldn’t do before the prayer” - and I followed his instruction to do so; moving my leg around, and then I was squatting down and feeling no twingy aches. Felt great. Healed by the activated love of Jesus through an activated 8th grader.

After the whole event, I pulled Dominic aside to tell him all of my experience, and my revelation that the reason my hamstring didn’t get better on its own, or with my own prayers, or my own therapy all this time, was so it would be hurting and ready for him to pray for it today. He’s activated in healing, and he can use this on people who have nagging issues to show them God’s love. I told him I was going to go run today.
Imagine being activated in healing in 8th grade. If I would have, who would I be now? Go Dominic.

As for me, I ran sprints in the street tonight. Fast fifties. God is a good God, and all things work together for good for those who love Him and are called according to His purposes.